I was living the dream.  Beautiful home, loving husband, two beautiful girls with another on the way, my own photography business. What could be wrong?   Me.  Or that’s what I told myself.  I blamed it on postpartum depression and rage (who knew that was a thing?!).  I was angry and emotional all the time, even though I was taking meds.  I was in the midst of losing my soul sister to aggressive breast cancer.  I was pregnant and exhausted, chasing my two little ones - not to mention my other “baby” (my business) - and a partner whose work obligations often left me alone.  And miserable.

I was completely out of alignment.  I wasn’t listening closely to my inner wisdom and it was showing up in all kinds of ugly ways.  Now I know that it was all happening for me, not to me.  Some call it a dark night of the soul.  It felt like an existential crisis to me. 

It’s worth noting that Scotland is a magical place (the unicorn is literally the country’s national animal).  In addition to my ancestral roots, I felt a truly profound connection to the land - especially in the highlands.   It’s a pretty special. While we were there, I was deep into attachment parenting my babe and this philosophy didn’t jibe with my family who was travelling with me. There was whisky.  There were words.   Flights home were looked up.   And I felt this unraveling start to happen. 

I began to release the need for external validation and to lean more into my Self.  Gradually, I started to slow down, to breath and move with more intention.  I began to heal.  I dove into meditation.  I started journalling and gathering with other women in circles and retreats.  I began to radiate from the inside out…

It’s your birthright.  Like most of us, you just need a little help remembering.  When you tune into your intuition, connect with your inner Self and who you really are at soul level, you align yourself with your truth and transform your life.   Empowering isn’t it?   It’s all just a little practical magic. ✨

My little women